My shadow

A stroll down the memory lane,

With solitude, beautiful and plain

My shadow stuck to the ground,

My sole companion when no one’s around

I glare at my wounds,

Cauterized by time

In the foggy trace of happiness,

I reminisce “life” that was once mine

I visualize my dreams, crystal clear

My eyes are blurred with unexplained tears

I move towards darkness

With blinding speed

I swallow my fears

Though in the knees, I still feel weak.

My obsessions seem to lead me to hell,

I already feel lost, sick and unwell.

Absence of peace, like a pestilence

Roots into me

Emptiness drags me by chains

I struggle to set myself free

The arrows from the quiver of time

Mauls my soul

I ain’t here to give up

No surrender, till I reach my goal

My shadow left me estranged,

In this road less travelled by

I watched it fade away

In the vivid reflection of lies.

My defiance is choked

My pride is a broke

Honoring myself , I embrace death

My shadow flees before I draw my last breath…………………

- Sagittaire Solitaire

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Random thought flash....

Morning trips over the dead silence

So much life emanates through the beam of light

Tumult of darkness is veiled,

In between the remnants of a lost ,lonely fight .

In the glitterati of beauty

You embezzled reality and replaced it with lies

And like an angel there you stood,

Possessing a soul of ice.

I never thought you’d be so fake

Filling my head with madness

I couldn’t foresee my mistake

Carrying a heart full of sadness.

Now, I’ve almost forgotten

How it is to feel love and pain

I’ve learnt to forego emotions

And ignore the enticing rain.

The candle of patience

Burns out with every passing day

Hope fuels positivity

I raise my hands and pray.

I’ve failed to learn

The truth behind the pretence

Now, I’ve given my pride

The name of forbearance….

- Sagittaire Solitaire

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Weird, right????

There’s plenty of time to be bored,

But none for celebration.

A lot of reasons to let tears trickle down,

But no reason to smile.

Lots of room for hatred,

But not a tiny space for love.

A lot of grudges to hold,

But none to forgive, forget and let go.

A lot of pain to hide,

But not enough happiness to show.

Lots of flaws to find,

But at the sight of good,turning blind.

Lots of reasons to give up,

But none to hold on to.

A lot of dreams to seek,

While no time to give reality a peek.

Lots of thoughts about dying,

But not a minute spent for making life worth living.

Lots of causes that shut down luck’s gate,

While all that’s needed is faith and patience to wait.

Always asking God a million questions about life’s complexity,

Yet, never seeking solace in simplicity.

Wishing  to know the solution to everything,

But doesn’t that take us back to square one that “Life’s boring?!!!???” 

- Sagittaire Solitaire

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Misunderstood!

Waitin’ at the edge of oblivion,

Hearing the miseries untold

Facing life’s delirium,

As truth, silently unfolds…….

Sleeping in desolation,

To escape the confusion

Wondering in solitude,

Feelin’ lost and alone in the multitude…..

Why does it seem I recognize no one,

When everyone I know is here?

How can I make my insecurities vanish,

And stop my heart from feelin’ fear?

Why can’t people see my burdens that are hard to bear,

Why can’t they see the silent tear that says “I care”?

If I seem heartless ,

I have surely been misunderstood……..

It snaps the strings of my heart to see myself bleeding,

I hate to see where my life is heading

I am engulfed by the chasm of morbidity,

I stand in anticipation of serendipity……

If I seem to be the strongest,

I have clearly been misunderstood…….

        
           --  Sagittaire Solitaire

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From darkness to light....

I guess I’ve been down there too long

I felt that’s where I belonged

But now, I see a speck of dust

Through the crack on darkness’s door

Sunlight’s peeping through it

And I can hide no more

I see the illusions taking guard,

Afraid to show their face

I watch fear marred,

Courage is taking its place

It’s taking time for my eyes to get adjusted,

To the light of the day

I’m feelin’ disgusted

Wondering how I’ve wasted life away.

It doesn’t matter how it all happened

But I got lost in the dark

And it took me a while to realize

That I could also make my mark

I never connected to emotions

I was reigned over by confusion

Love was just an irritation

Life only meant frustration………

But now, something calls me above the pit of darkness

There’s a fire raging through nothingness

This blinding light is urging me to make a new start

It’s trying to compel my silent heart…

  -        Sagittaire Solitaire

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Victory????

The reeking stench of a bloody war,

The hopeless shrieks of a child

The silent words of a lullaby

The nostalgia in the wild

The reminiscence of the life before the destruction

Now, nothing’s left of that vivid reflection….

The once fertile land is choked with smoke,

Where the ashen beads of sweat of the peasants still lie

The orphanages and shelter homes are in havoc,

Now stuffed with the lifeless as millions die

We sounded the trumpet of victory,

We boasted of our glorious win

We turned a whole thriving land into a cemetery

And on our faces we still have a shameless grin?

When did we let go of our conscience?

When did humanity leave the temple within our being?

How did we learn to win against our abstinence ,

To never hurt an innocent thing?

When did the God residing in us get replaced by a Devil?

When did we turn from good to evil?

If we can find the answers, we have worthily led this life

But, if we can’t, then we’ve been and we are still living an unfortunate lie!!!!!

   - Sagittaire Solitaire

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Tiny grain of sand

I am a tiny grain of sand

From the earth I rise

It’s the land that gives me birth

And sees my demise….

I gaze at the distant sky

And long to hold infinity

My dreams lie in castles

Which vanish when the giant waves crash over me….

I am crushed by human feet

Underneath me, they’re buried

I wish sometimes they could see

How much pain their “walk of pleasure” causes me….

My grief stretches over the vastness

Yet, the world around fails to understand my sadness 

 

The sea urges the clouds to bring rain,

To wash away my agonies and frustration

My heart burns with the assaulting heat of the day

The rain soothes me as my hopes rot away………….

I touch the heart of the ocean

And wish that it drowns me

But I return back to the land,

The place where I am bound to be……..

I watch the night creep in silently

I see the pearly moon glow with pride

I dream of beauty in the solitude

With the twinkling of the stars, spread far and wide……….

I don’t feel alive,

I ain't dead

I long to be among the stars,

Yet I’m trapped on the earth’s bed….

I am an unfortunate grain of sand,

With all aching truths, I continue to survive

It’s the land that gave me birth

And will see my demise……………..

- Sagittaire Solitaire

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Wished upon a star.......

I wished upon a star today

To let me be yours forever

I wished upon a star today

To part from you never

I closed my eyes and felt the glow pierce through my heart

I prayed so that from my life you’re never apart

I wept a silent tear,

With the thought of you not being there

I laughed a thousand laughs,

With you happiness never seems to be enough

I wished upon a star today

So that at least that one wish of mine comes true

I wished upon a star today

Hoping I could always be with you…. 

-----  Sagittaire Solitaire

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Love Ya Dad !!!

There's this one reason why I cry,

It's the thought of ever having to tell you "Goodbye".

I sometimes wish I could open up my heart,

To let you see how much I miss you every time we're apart.

When you're around,

everything's perfect and life's a bliss.

When you're not,

there's something that I always miss.

I fight, I scream, I behave completely stupid with you,

But you always forgive me for everything I do.

Sometimes, I hurt you,

and become the cause of your worry.

But I never mean a thing I say,

and for all the rudeness I feel so sorry.

I want to let you know about those lonely times,

when all I need is your hug.

I want to tell you how to keep myself from falling apart,

I act arrogant and smug.

You console me when I'm in distress,
You ease my pain.
You give me more than I deserve,
without expecting anything in return or any gain.
I want to let you know that whenever I pray,
I ask God to take care of you, 
every single day.

I throw all my tantrums at you,

Ever wonder why??

That's because I love you,

And in front of you I don't have to hide my feelings, I don't have to be shy.

When you're away I miss you,

The moment that you're out of my sight, I wish I could meet you.

Actually, I guess I don't have much to ask from God

'Cause he sent me the best gift I could've ever had.....

He blessed me with you - my very special Dad.

A jade in my heart who fills my life with hues,

Dad I'm nothing without you and I really really love you!

- Sagittaire Solitaire

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Wind of change.......

Turning back the cracked, yellow pages of the novel of life,

today I observe freshness replacing the decay.

Hope springs and the butterflies dance,

to welcome a brand new day.

After the deadly winter slumber,

the flowers adorn the previously lifeless branches.

The leaves traipse over the new, yielding land,

Fragrance of rejuvenation fills the air.

The endless chirruping of birds calls towards a new horizon.

The sun's first ray of desire,

touches the frozen mountains.

The once lifeless lake teems with verve.

Everything talks of a change, a different tomorrow,

Eradication of all miseries, plight and sorrow.

Though the binding of the book of life appears to crack,

experiences and memories form its very strong back.

With a million dreams, life hopes to make a new start,

with no complaints or regrets to store in the heart.

The lyrics of life mingles with the rhythm of love,

as the Almighty showers his grace from the heavens above.

- Sagittaire Solitaire
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Life and death.....

The first kiss of life touches the tender lips,

A glistening tear adorns the eye.

I'm captivated by the evil decree of defeat,

My life, crushed under negativity's feet.

Leaves of victory sway across the breeze of oblivion,

And I stand on the pulpit of stagnating silence with no opinion.

The shrieks of agony fill my mind,

My heart is veiled by sorrow,

My voice is a forbidden roar of torture,

I can breathe no more.......

The caress of death smothers my being,
All directions lost, emptiness encompasses me.
My fondest dreams shatter into fragments,
strewing remorse on my empty soul.
A prayer echoes ceaselessly across the wilderness,
The blossoms from the tree above settle on my desolate tombstone.

-Sagittaire Solitaire

  

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Once upon a time........

When she was just a girl,

She lived in this beautiful world.

Strewn with fragments of fantasy,

and never-ending ecstacy.

Life was like a canvas ,

filled with hues of red, yellow, green,blue....

It was like that until the time big she grew. 

She came to see her peers,

She confronted her fears.

She knew about problems,

She learnt about pain.

She knew what it felt like to lose or gain.

She's all encompassed by negativity now,

Looking for a way to escape life somehow.

So, she closes her eyes,

and goes back to her magnificent world.

She dreams of a simple life,

where there's no sadness or lies.

She feels honesty in every gaze ,

and calls people her own.

She dreams of all the beauty she had once known.

She seeks solace in her peaceful sleep,

as her mind delves into mysteries, fascinating and deep.......

- Sagittaire Solitaire

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The Sky and Me.....

The sky has a thousand reasons to smile,

but still it cries.

I have a thousand reasons to cry,

but the smile on my face never dies.

The sky sheds its anger by roaring out loud,

I let my anger melt in the laughter of the crowd.

The sky lets the world feel its pain,

when it floods or drowns it.

But I hide most of my pain inside,

it keeps devouring me, bit by bit.

The sky successfully helps people by dissolving their tears,

I can only pretend to be happy by hiding my fears. 

The sky knows no limits,
It can extend as much it wants to
Iam however trapped,
Bound to be where I don't want to.
The sky has clouds as friends,
who are so carefree.
But, care is an integral part of my life,
that's kind of solitary.
I cry my heart out to display my grief and pain,
The sky, however drains out all its emotions through the heavy rain.......

- Sagittaire Solitaire

  

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